food ...... :(

ive never been one to start a blog or a diary and actually stick to it..but i hope this time its different, i am at my heaviest and need to make a change...i am only 27 and there are so many things i would LOVE to do in my life..but at the rate i am going i wont live past 40 and thats if im lucky. i dont know what it is about food...is it really food or am i just that bored? i find myself..sitting there at lunch time planing my meal and out of all the options i try and pick the one with the most food..why am i being so stupid...i know im not the only one out there thats like this...right??? the life im living right now is really weird something i have never done b4 and i hate to say it but i think it might be one reason why i have gained..i mean not to mention im sure it has a lot to do with my choices. living on the road..eating fast food most of the time..unless i am lucky to get a room with away to cook..it sucks and it doesnt do my body any good. :(  there are things in life that i want....and i know that unless i lose weight i might not ever have these things. being as heavy as i am does not help me get prego..which is something that i dream of..... i have been married to a wonderful loving man for a year now..and the thought of bringing in a child to this family is just an awesome feeling...i have to do this for me and my family..i just dont know how :(

(posted on Tuesday Jan, 25 2011 via WW.com)